I decided to write this blog post in the midst of packing up my dorm room on 3rd floor Boaz. For some reason my iTunes library knew I was moving out and, while on shuffle, decided to play all songs that had to do with growing up which in turn made me very sentimental. The song that especially got me to start thinking was Stop This Train by John Mayer, when he sings:
"Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train"
He hit the nail on the head with that one. How weird is it that your life seems to slowly go by, anticipating the day you're an adult. However, when you turn 16 life seems like some one hit the fast forward button on your life. You go from your 8th grade graduation one day to moving out of your college dorm room the next, asking your self, "where has the time gone?"
After making the easy decision to attend SMU (I only applied to two other schools as back up), I became apprehensive yet excited for the unknown life that soon lay ahead of me. Although I was only moving 4.5 miles away, I knew college in general would be a different world. AARO quickly came and went. However, I met two of my best friends and sorority sisters in AARO Group 6. Next thing you know I had said goodbye to my high-school friends and was angrily, against my will, riding the bus to Mustang Corral. After surviving the overwhelming amount of ice breakers, I finally settled into my room anxiously wondering how this next year would go in this nicely decorated jail cell. My neighbors were all people I didn’t know and there were boys walking down the hallway when you got out of the shower. How was this ever going to feel like home??
But in the blink of an eye, I found my best friends right down the hall. Awkward hallway encounters turned into familiar hellos'. And before I knew it the people I was living with quickly became my new family and Boaz Hall became my new home. From countless parties to random nights out; late night study sessions to late night food runs- this year has succeeded my expectations further than I can imagine.
As the months rolled by it never occurred to me that this would end. And now here I am packing up my dorm room, ending my first year of college. As I take the pictures from this year off my bulletin board, I smile a bittersweet smile and think of the quote from Grey's Anatomy said by Meredith Grey, "when did we become adults and how do we make it stop?"
Though I did not live on campus this year, I fully agree with you that it feels like somebody had pushed the fast forward button on my life. Honestly, I cannot believe that it was a mere nine months ago that I started my college life at SMU. All those nights of cramming, all night studies, worrying about English essays, the what felt like a singe day of christmas break, and the crazy week of snow all feel like a jumble of small fragments of memory put together in a weird collage. I had always though when I was young that when I go to college, I will be a tall, mature man, but it is quite the opposite. I had not changed a bit from high school and I am quite satisfied with that.
ReplyDelete